A topic most people, especially artists and writers, don’t want to think about. Let me tell you, I’m one of them.
I can feel it right now, in my eyes and in my brain. I haven’t thought about it before, not until the other day. My mom noticed and commented that I go in cycles where I get this project driven mindset and I cram a whole lot into it and then I go through this cycle where I have no motivation to do anything… the changes are sudden and fairly unpredictable in how long the cycles last, but the no motivation takes far longer to leave than the extreme motivation phase, that one is usually pretty quick. The fun part is that even while I have no motivation my brain is in overdrive and I just want it to stop…
First, if you have this problem, I do recommend seeking help, I am planning to talk to my doctor soon because bipolar/manic-depressive run in the family and I know about my depression and anxiety and those can mean I might have a whole cocktail of mental issues I don’t know about. If you don’t want to see your doctor or a therapist, I suggest a pastor/spiritual leader or a close friend or family member for support… You are not alone.
Second, this is what, for me, is called a burnout cycle. You create and create and create, but then you just kind of stop, you are exhausted in mind and body. It sucks.
If left untreated or unnoticed, I’m speaking from current burnout, it can go on for a long time. Personally, I have been experiencing this since college. I think I forced myself too hard with my course load and the amount of writing I took on all at once without allowing myself to have fun and relax.
Part of burnout is when you run out of fuel, sometimes physically, and sometimes mentally… but either way you are exhausted.
I think I’ve been burnt out since college to be honest… and I have no idea how to get out. I guess I’ll keep you posted because I don’t even know what I’m doing…